Tuesday, October 31, 2006
yesterdei was a weird dei for me. it's either malas aco or ung araw co. cguro result narin to ng pagttake for granted co ng mga bagai. i never get to find myself doing things seriously and whole heartedly. lahat parang putol putol or whatever nalang for me. that's what makes yesterdei one of the WORST deis of my life.to give you an idea of how my october 30 2006 went, here's a glimpse of events:
-my eyes tried to remain close but unfortunately, i found it hard para kunin ulit ung antok co when my mum gave my allowance for the week and my sister going to school i slept at around 7:15 na yata. (that was 6:30 am)
- i heard my phone alarm para sa lakad namin ni meli. i never got the chance na i-snooze because i need to help para sa handa later that afternoon for my brother's 12th burtdei. (that was 8 am)
- despite the fact na kasagsagan ng bagyong Paeng sa labas, i decided to wear my sister's pink flops na nung umalis na aco ng bahai proved to be an unappropriate footwear for the dei.
- i sat at RH lobby and receivd a text from mel saying mahuhuli xa ng dating kce baha na sa makati. (unfortunately, i aryvd skool at 10:15 am)
- nagkita na kame ni meli and went searching for a Pasay-Buendia jeep amidst the rally going on not more than a meter awei from kung saan kame sasakai. (that was past 11 am already)
- bumaba kame sa jeep and before the bus we rode drove off, i found myself wearing pants na one fourth soaked in rain/baha plus the aircon trying to climb to my legs pa.
- pagbaba ng bus sa mei paragon plaza, we went to the 9th floor but we ddn't found sir alvin there. d daw pumasok and d rin iniwan ung cd. (awww.so sad.)
- we decided to go to shang passing megamall. pero dahil tryks are not allowd sa hi-wei, we walked, and believe me, it was a very tiring one kahet d kame nkarating sa mega.
- kumain lang kme sa mister donut and decided to go back to skool nalang. kawawa nman c vina kung mghihintai samen. (that was 1 pm na)
- we got to the MRT station and pagsakai, nkataio pa kme two-thirds halos ng byahe.i tryd to convince meli to take a pic sa phone co para mei remembrance kme, pero i wasn't able to convince her - and myself as well. (ehem, shy dn aco)
- we decided na dna mg-LRT. mahirap na kung nakatayo na naman kme. i later realyzd, it was wrong decision. pinuno pa ung jeep na nasakyan namen and d na kame mkababa kce we've already paid the fare. tinext nlng ni meli c go na mahuhuli kme. (that was 1:55, nasa remedios palang ung jeep)
- bumaba na kami sa mei KFC. gusto co na kce mg-CR pero hassle pa rin kce antagal co ng-antai ng turn co kaht aco na ung ssunod. grrr to myself.
- we proceeded to RH 3rd floor para makuha ung Econ101 classcard. kinuha na pala ni vina, na kanina pa naghhntai samen sa mei chem stockroom. before one pa xa nandun and she didn't look so hapie nung ngkita-kita kame. (that was 2:30 pm na kce)
- pag-ui, i decided to use the internet. d aco mka-connect so naglaro nlng aco wit my two lil naughty siblings..haai.
- kainan na nung handa. gutom na co and sadly, i need to clean my wound pa kce nasugatan aco wyl setting the table. my sister had tym to open my notebook pa and connect to the internet. buti pa siya..(that was 4 pm)
- got a huge fight with my mum to the point na nagsisigawan na kame. and i was hungry after washing my sister's flops na kailangang dalhin nia sa province.
- i talked to my best friend on the phone. hinintai co pa nman xa mg-fix ng skool sked nia so we can go to the salon together, nkapagp-relax na pla xa ng hair nia. i asked her nlang to come wit me in going back to ortigas and get the cd and told me she'll come kce wla clang pasok on fridei, and she'll bring super with her. (they hav the same skool skeds and they see each other even on wikends. i knoe they nid to see each other that dei kht wlang pasok but i just wanted to find tym to spend wit my bez alone..)
- after being scolded, i was forced to clean the two bedrooms. imagine, nagwawalis aco at pnagppawisan late at night. haaii..
- cried a tear or two before finally being able to fall asleep, kahit inabala na aco ng kapatid co ng lagai na un. (that was about 12 am)
if not for my fixed sanity, i might have had brokedown and died.
"o GOD, help me to accpet the things i cannot change and the courage to change the things that i can." - 28 days
i remembered what my bez told me about the article she read: a person's attitude for the day consists of only 10 percent of what fate brings and 90 percent is that of one's mood towards the events.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Maraming nangyari sa loob ng aking unang semestre ng ikalawang taon ko sa kolehiyo. Nagtapos na naman ang isa sa aking pinakamadudugong semestre. Alam kong nasabi ko na ito noong ako'y nasa unang taon pa lamang pero napagtanto ko na paiba-iba rin pala ang antas ng hirap para sa akin. Unti-unti nang tumataas ang lebel ng aking pag-unawa sa salitang SAKRIPISYO sa bawat araw na lumipas. Mas nagiging malaki ang pagkakaiba sa paggamit ng PAGPUPURSIGI at PAGIGING TRYING HARD. Ayoko mang isipin na mag-iikalawang semestre na sa pagsapit ng Nobyembre (dahil una sa lahat ay ngayon ko palang nalalsap ang tunay na kahulugan ng PAGBABAKASYON), hindi ko maaalis sa isip ko na ako'y tumatanda (mahigit kalahating taon na ang nakalipas buhat 
nang ako'y maglabing-walong taong gulang) - at kailangang mas malaki ang agwat ng mga katagang TAMA at MALI di lang sa puso kundi sa salita at gawa.Ang semestreng ito ang nagturo sa akin na mayroong tatlong uri ng kasamaan sa iba't ibang anyo (maliban pa sa mga alam na nating meron sa mundo). Una: napatunayan kong hindi lahat ng mga tao sa paligid ay mapagkakatiwalaan. May mga taong bigla nalang mang-iiwan sa ere at hindi ka sasaluhin kahit nakitang nahuhulog na ako mula sa kalangitan (kung ako man ay manggagaling doon o kahit mula nalang sa ibabaw ng upuan). Ikalawa: na may nagtatagong alaskador sa anyo ng mga taong kahit ayaw mo ng kanilang presensya ay patuloy akong gagambalain at aaligid sa aking tabi. Ito yung mga taong parang ipinanganak para asarin ako at subukin ang pasensya ko. Hindi naman sa ayoko ng mga ganitong klase ng tao, pero sana alam nila ang ibig sabihin ng pangungusap na "PSST, TAMA NA, PLEASE?" at kung hindi pa rin makaintindi ay baka maihahagis ko nalang sila sa ikatlong palapag ng RH. Ang ikatlo ay nasa anyo ng mga taong nagbigay-daan sa mga hindi maiiwasa at maiiwasan namang pangyayari di lamang sa AS kundi sa lahat ng pagkakataon. Isa sa mga ito ang mga prof at ang kanilang mga di-inaasahang pagsusulit (ang notebook at current events na sana ay nabuklat ko man lang kagabi), ang mga di-inaasahang ipapagawa sa akin sa klase at sa bahay(sana nakapagsuklay man lang ako ng buhok bago ka natawag o mautusan), at mga panahong hindi ko namalayang sinimot na to the last centavo ang aking pera (kaya napilitan akong manghiram ng P6.00 para makauwi).
Kung merong ganitong klase ng mga kasamaan sa mundo, naimbento rin naman ang mga mabubuting elemento. Nariyan ang mga kaibigan: na kahit hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan sila magtatagl sa buhay ko ay naging makabuluhan pa rin silang bahagi nito. Nariyan ang aking mga magulang: na kahit ilang beses ko na nasigawan sa init ng ulo ko sa mga "nagawa ko sana pero hindi ko naalala" ay nariyan pa rin upang makinig, dumamay at magpasensiya (hindi ko tuloy alam ang kinabukasan ko bilang isang ina balang araw. I repeat:BALANG ARAW). At ang huling mala-anghel na elemento sa mapait na daigdig na ito ay ang mga taong naging parte ng masasaya kahit sandali lang na mga pangyayari. May mga pahapyaw sa buhay ko na nakakapagbigay ng ngiti sa akin kahit panandalian lang - para mabigyan ako kahit paano ng inspirasyon upang ipagpatuloy ang mga bagay na naumpisahan ko na at kailangang nalang tapusin. Ito yung mga sandaling kailangan ko pang lasapin ng maigi habang nariyan pa upang nang sa gayon ay hindi ako magsisi sa mabilis nitong pagtatapos. Haay, alam niyo na kung sinu-sino kayo at nawa'y dama ninyo na MAHAL KO KAYO (heto ang isang kiss sabay hug: mmmm-muah).
Hindi naman sa mamamatay na ako bago makapag-enroll no. Isa lamang itong pagpupugay sa mga nilalang na naging bahagi ng masalimuot kong semestre (sa ngayon). Nagbigay kayo ng bagong kahulugan sa KATATAGAN at PAGMAMAHAL, at dahil doon ay mas lalong naging hinog ang aking pagkatao. Naging mga "lubak" ko kayo (o bangungot pa kung minsan) at mga balikat na masasandalan (o unan na mahihigaan: at malalawayan - eeww. kadiri talaga ako!) sa kulang-kulang na tatlong buwan ng pagsasama. Tinuruan ninyo ako kung paano tumayo sa aking dalawang paa matapos mabundol (ng 10-wheeleer na trak), madapa at magka-sugat sugat. Astig kayo. Salamat.
NASA BLOG DIN NA ITO:
Ang mga larawang inyong nakikita ay mga larawan kanina sa launchingng MY Games sa San Andres Sports Complex. Nag-compete ang aking pinakamamahal na kabarkadang si Dianne (sayang wla tayong pic.nxtym nlng.lovya.muah muah) sa ilalim ng EAC Generals sa pamumuno ni Coach BJ (nax.may credit si Kuya BJ). Hndi ko nakunan ng larawan ang MAPUA Cardinals na nag-perform kasama ng aking ka-batch na si MJ (misya.sayang d tayo nagkita).
Friday, October 13, 2006
suposedly, malas ang thriteenth whenever nttpat xa sa fridei. but then nsa tao prn un f u'l let misfortune cover your life or not. tulad nlng nung huling naaalala co na oct.13 which fell on a fridei. that was 2001 pa pro dahil mraming mga events na ngyri during that tym, i can help but think of fridei the thirteenth every october as malas. i'm not fan of any superstition actually kso minsan inaasociate co ung circumstances keia dna nagmmukang coinicidents.
newei, im not really going to talk about my number and dei luck here. ngppkasenti aco so i'd lyk to share here are some songs which make my wave 89.1 mornings complete.if ever you knoe any song and lyk to give me the lyrics or artisst or copy..OMG. that wud really help.
why do i love you - metaphor *im influenced by my sister hu loves this one. one tym na-LSS aco kka-hum ni suds.grrr.. i dunno kung my copy na sa net nito. cross fingered.*
f i knew *i don't knoe who sung this one.drats.i have the lyrics and all but everytym i hear it the dj won't sei hu's single is it. love it though nkkafrustrate.*
kai - maryzark *im soooo in to the song. anqt nung pgkkakanta ng vocalist during nu107 skool of rock at suburbia malate last month. ysterdei co nlng ulet narinig kei meli kce she downloaded it from the pc to her mp3 na.woohoo! thanks for lending me PULP battle of the bands featuring this one vina!ate ni vina thanks dn! haha.*
everything is you - boyz2men *nung brownout due to typhoon milenyo,my phone was a great solution to boring afternoons - as in GREAT HELP tlga. up to now i do love this song na prang furstym co xa narining.wahaha.*
panic at the disco's second single *its not senti pro i love that video. the vocalist is hot ryt meli?nd remember when i told you it's panic room who sung the song?hahaha. nkakahiya. pero i have the guts to sei these in my blog.yuck tlga aco.lol.*
...and a list of some comerxals i noticed lately:
that tide guy who's not wearin polo during the begining?nung nkatalikod xa during the end of the comerxal looks lyk yael in school uniform.haha.*pg nkatalikod lng huh?*
i looove that coke comerxal. un pla mga ngyayari sa loob ng vending machine no?wahaha. *my dad and i were laughing so hard when i askd him pno kung 10 ung binili nia sunod sunod.lol*
im hearing almost every close friend of myn, including my lil siblings here at home, sing that lyn "nag-aabsob ng weewee.pati amoi ng weewee." gosh.
waaah.havent seen jay contreras' alien comerxal. buti pa c go nakita na.*kkainis*
that long christmas comerxal by close up i think.qt dw pro na bore aco.sobra.*yawn.zzzzzz.*
the promo palmolive is havin, isnt that a gaya-gaya verxon of sunsilk's?*im using pink aromatheraphy pa nmn.haha.*
so there goes ONE-EIGHTH plang of my lyks and eeews these past deis. follow up nlng nxtym.
"the reason y i'm trying to smyl i'm tellin you last tym had became my reason y i'm tryin to fake that good mood of myn nowadeis."
Monday, October 09, 2006
okei. so natapos na at lhat ang milenyo, d mn lng aco nkagwa ng panibagong entrie. sisihin co man ung blackout sa ncr, drin xa valid reason kce tlgang bc aco for the last two weeks. asikaso ng mga papers, reports, at lhat na yta ng klase ng exam - practical, oral, departmental. *sbi co nga sa isa samga testing bnigyan co, sna mental nlng no?d na departmental.lol* gud thing mejo mttpos na ung wik na ito *although mondei plang* excited na co mgsembreak. bahay, bahay, bahay. d mn lng aco mkksama kna xandra and momie na mgbboracay *how moe twister hated boracay being called BORA - intermixon* my sister wud b practicing photography dw dun. wooshoo. f i knoe..mgsswiming ca lng e! haha. xmpre mom will be taking her day-off both sa schoolwork and household work including pananawai sa mga younger siblings co. it only meant one thing. and that is simply saying i'll be the one taking care of these two lil...uhmm, ano kyang term bgay sa knila...waits lng...aun! "asungots". haha. at least my mom wont be scolding me kce d nmn xa ngbbasa ng blog co. newei, i'm still in that sinat-sinat feeling. nabinat kce sa mga activities lately - sobrang strenuous. *forgive my wrong spelings and typo error. mgaaral pa kce aco sa hum1 e.* kgabi lng cnawai co pa ung mga paslit kce nag-awai n nmn. *i remember marian tellin her mom "c ate mae nagagalit na.." haaai. i love that kid* wyl finishing our ns4 written report, muslim art report and thinkin what i have to say for my oral exam. then the other day was the arnis finals plus natsci4 last departmental. gud thing my msayang item. *sna lhat ng prof my ganun no. you just have to say what's on your mind and then taddaaa! my points ca na without having to worry if it's ryt or wrong. - thanks sir* and the trip to pgh last fridei. haaai. no words cud ever descryb my last two visits to sentro oftalmologico *that new building myt be cursed. haha. ewangcolang.* pero to give you an idea of how i felt, eto ung tlgang ngyari. i'm having contact lens iritation cguro more than a month ago na so in-advys aco to use eyeglasses for the meantym. ngpa-refract aco *f.y.i:it's a process to knoe what grade are your eyes na* and ngtaas xa ng another -1.0 for the left and -0.5 for the right eye. progressive po kce ang pgtaas nung grade *hereditary, father's syd* but stil, i was shocked kce la pa yta one yr since my last refraction. that tym on, i told myself i'll b more disciplined na in taking care of my eyes. after a month or so of "balik ca after two weeks" dun sa pgh, they told me the presure in my eyes had increased and so i hav to change the med drops i've bin using and referal nrin sa glau clinic. my dad bought my meds and i saw the label "anti-glau" on one of the drops i'm taking. as i sat there last fridei, i noticed na aco ung "youngest" sa group. *oha oha. ngaion nlng ulit aco youngest.wahaha. - intermixon* almost ol of the patients ther were above 40 na. sum of them were alreadi blind sa isang eye, others are seeing bright light nlang and almost all were discussing how they managed to see khit na nalaser na ung eyes nila. one of them even askd me kung na-operahan na dw aco sa eyes. i told them "hindi po. contact lens irritation lng ung saken." i wonderd how come i was sittin with them kung hindi pa symptoms ng glau ung findings saken. i tryd textin my frends in order to divert atenxon from the situation, and even studyin *kuno* for the ns4 exam the followin morning, but i can't run awei from reality. that moment, until now pg naaalala co ung eye problems co, i can't help but shed tears. evrytym i try to face the mirror without my glasses or cl, my reflection is already a blur. i can't see my face clearly anymore. i'm scared to death tuwing iniicp co kung pno nlng keia pgdating ng 30's co f my situation gets worse. i myt not be able to apreciate lie anymore. i knoe it's kind of dramatic talkin bout these things pero hndi co maiwasang icping anytym in the near future, pwdeng maging totoo itong mga to. ito nlng cguro outlet co. d rin nmn yta aco mgkkron ng guts na mg-open to anybody witout being madrama. tma na ung isa na nmng sniffin-moment bgo mg-aral sa hum1. at least i had worthly spent my tym. *kysa mg-prym suspects - c/o camille.lol.* tma na nga. my dad wud be coming upstairs na any minute. mgttnong saken un bket co iniiyakan ung ntbk..haha.“ooh.ksalanan bang humingi aco sa langit ng…isang himala?�
ooops, i forgot to tell. GOD gave me a reason to smyl althou these things kept on returning to my head. haha. it's a secret. *sabhin nio weird aco.senti senti tpos mgpapahula hbang tumatawa.d no, naalala co lng.*