Wednesday, November 29, 2006
cause i'm the one that loves you lately..- daniel powter
our PS14 prof met us a while ago and boy, he did spelled TOXIC for me.
if ever Sir Carl is reading, i do wish he'd take this wit a smyl.
he's a great prof by the way. haha. nax.
at least it's a good neutralizer wit my 5-day no-school days.
well, i'm still assuming kce my socsci2 sked is on saturdei. hindi pa kce namin xa namimeet - ever since. we asked sa DSS pero wala pa rin silang balita. i went home afterwards..
walang ulam sa bahay.
kylangan co pa bumili sa labas -
well at least d kasing mahal ng mga fastfood, schoolfood, at mallfood. nothing beats lutong bahay, at kapitbahay.
speaking of lutong bahay, i'm sensitive to food minsan.
i'm comparing it silently to my lola's home made dishes praying it would taste the same.
panu na kya kami pg wla na c lola? her food tastes real good, the best pa nga..
and i mean REAL GOOD.
d kce nia shnshare samen kung pano e.
i'd lyk to be a good cook pa nmn tulad nia sumdei. haha.
mgsshift aco sa culinary! weee! kiddin..
after eating - A LOT,
i read a few chapters from camille's Inkheart and went to sleep at 1 pm.
gawaing tamad no?
i set my alarm ng 3 o'clock in the afternoon.
i had this great dream.
so great as if it was really happening.
d co na nga sana sasabihin ung details pero cge, sneak peek lang..
i dreamt i was not home until 11:30 in the evening.
d co alam kung bakt aco na-late nakauwi.
cguro dahil talagang ganun pg enjoi ca.
and i did not just enjoyed - i am so happy that time.
i am used to texting my mom if ever i'd be going home late, pero i didn't text her.
so when i was about to open our gate sa dream co,
afraid of what my parents are going to say,
i woke myself up.
THE END. haha.
bitin buh?
i shud have continued my dream and see what happened next.
pero tama na un. at tama na rin muna to.
soon nalang ung details - pag nagbago icp co.
haai..if only i cud say it here..well actually, i cud. pero i won't. haha.
and so instead of waking up at 3,
i got out of bed at 4.
lowbat na dahil sa kkaalarm ung fone co.
pambawi na rin cguro sa mga nights i have to sleep late.
and advance na rin sa mga puyat blues co soon.
there's still that weird feeling as i made my merienda. up to now, pag naaalala co, i smyl and do wish it was real.
sabi nila pg daw mganda ung dream and gusto mo magkatotoo you'd tell it to other people. others would say it's the other way around at wag daw dpat ipagsasabi.
alin buh talaga?
Friday, November 24, 2006
weird aco lately. *yes. aminado aco.* buti nalang matino na aco ngaion. haha. and i enjoyed almost everything that happened today *if only i had brought my whole allowance i'd be a lot happier.sadly, i left it on top of our dining table kaninang umaga.*although i'm not in the mood for senti mode, nitatamad aco maglipat ng radio station. *listening to joe d mango as of the moment* perhaps i could use a little calmness around me. *calmness nga buh as i try not to be disturbed with his voice?lol.*
enough with the sidelines. to start it off,i had a great time with my phil games class. i enjoyed being able to play games like that. it brought out the childlike me once again. ansarap ng feeling if you know that you won't be bothered with what other people will say about you. that was what i was like a while ago. innocently doing what would make you feel free..teehee. i know it's a must to do it, but hello, at least i'm doing these requirements WHOLE HEARTEDLY. i mean it. *masakit lang tlga legs co. my body's still under shock despite that warm-up..it proves that i really need to go back to my stretching every morning..*
our psych and natsci 8 also played its part in making my day go well. they just gave lectures not assigning us with any take home work. i wish it would remain that way. isn't it rejuvinating to be able to understand well what you are talking about in class tapos tests nalang ang problema mo?
unlike that socio class we had a while ago. i don't know if i'd be thankful for a few classmates *ehem. matamaan sana keio* who diverted the class' attention every once in a while or i should be mad at them for still opening topics *na sana kung naubusan ng gagawin sa socio e di nagpalabas siya ng mas maaga* i don't know if it's just pagod aco or i wasn't the only one sleepy that time. i'm drawing stuff, scribbling letters at the back of my nokbuk *haha.ganyan i-pronounce ng lil sister co ang notebook!* and other things to keep me awake. *buti nga d aco nagpakurot sa mga katabi co e.haha.* buti naman next meeting, we'll simply watch The Village. *sana abutin ng dec8*
nagpanic aco kanina sa ds100.i read Condorcet but i don't know how to respond immediately to the questions he's throwing. baka d rin aco makasagot - good thing d aco tinawag. naaliw dn aco how sir edvil does his letter A. he also reenacted certain actions, which made me laugh. parang bata. haha. pero that's a good thing. baka mei nagbabasa na naman ng blog co and sabihin i'm playing with professors again. *defensive effect.lol.*
when jaja and i went to taft para maghintay ng jeep, i saw an unfamiliar stream of people along the same avenue - all waiting for their transpo, a few walking and trying to go to a certain place. what the..mukha talagang yung mga taong nasa bahay lumabas pa just to add to the crowd..antagal before we decided to take two rides home.
anyway, i texted my smart friends *haha. smart na service provider a.* kagabi stuff - blah blah blah, i had terrible past days, blah blah, plus a little help-me-complete-my-day plea.
thanks to all of you - including people i need not to text in order for them to complete my day.
WARNING:
ganda moments ommited from today's entrie. haha. lol.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
eto. pra sa'yo to. you knoe hu you are. no more introductions needed. i've had enough. and i'm through with you..keeping in touch with you after sharing *or destroying* the earlier parts of my life was a TERRIBLE IDEA. i shud have learned not to go back to those times. i had forgotten that the word NEVER existed.naging manhid aco to the things you had brought me before. i thought you'd change, i thought you'd prove me you're a WHOLE LOT BETTER, i thought you'd learn..
hndi co napancn na what happend before will be repeating itself now -
oops, i underestimated it -
'WORSE' pala ang term.
that dei you rode with me to skool..
exchanging numbers
you updating me on your life
you learning to like me
you giving up
you having her again *or having her eversince*
you coming back like nothing happend
you telling me you're happy with my presence
you posing as a best friend..
WRONG! WRONG! WRONG!
if fate would be reading these and would be given a chance to comment, it would simply tell me
TSK TSK TSK. KAILAN CA MATUTUTO?
*at kung my pagkakataon, baka batukan pa niya aco*
it's wrong for me to say this pero it was a mistake knowing you. seldom in my life nagyayaring naiiyak aco sa sobrang galit.
and you know what's making me angrier?
me giving my number to you
me accepting you for what you were before and who you are now
me liking you in returnme being always there whenever you need me
me learning to forgive you for all
me doing all these things like i haven't experienced these before..
ARGHH. FOOLISH OF ME TO THINK YOU'D CHANGE.
tuwing naiicp kita telling me i shudn't have judged you immediately pisses me off. with all the understanding i had shown you and trying to remain cool althrough out despite your lies, i don't think i'd manage to listen to your explanations anymore.i don't think those reasons *valid man* wud change these pain and hurt you've caused me.
i can still feel the stress right now na wla acong capacity to think straight so thank you very much readers for bearing with my wrong spelling and gramar.of course, letting these all out would be a great * i mean GREAT* help obtain slower pulse beats and then lower blood pressure and sugar level..
hell with it. you're still lucky to get a few entries dedicated to you in my blog.
i must start to forget - and not start to get even with you.
ENOUGH..
YOU'RE NOT WORTH IT.
NO MORE..
Sunday, November 19, 2006
everything's so blurry, and everyone's so fake..everybody’s empty, and everything is so messed up.. - puddle of muddhaha. i've been facing emotional idle moments lately and darn,
i hate it.
i got nowhere to run,
nowhere to go
and no one to turn to.
these are the kind of things i MUST LEARN to face alone and it's too hard to do so. worse, i'm the type of person who does not want to live all by myself. *both literally and not* i knoe it's right to spare some for yourself but it really is hard for me not to say anything to anybody at all.
worst thing is if ever i got the chance to tell these things - there's still a big stinky problem left - I DON'T KNOW HOW..
sigh.
in line with the gospel for today *it's a sundei guys. don't forget your prayer services*,i think i'm undergoing my own judgement days already.
take note - judgement DAYS.
it's like experiencing an apocalypse - ALL IN MY HEAD.
i knoe i have my mom and dad who always tell me ANAK, KUNG MAY PROBLEMA KA, WG KA MAHIHIYA MAGSABI SAMIN HA? and my friends who'll say GELAI*or MEI*, ANDITO LANG KAMI PARA SA'YO but damn..
it's still different if you can't find the feelings to descryb it, the words to explain it, the guts to say it and the courage to accept it.
i respect you guys so much that i know you're facing your own *even bigger* problems too. *ayaw co na dumagdag sa mga iicpn nio..*
besyds,i don't want anybody telling me who the heck is this gurl acting as if she got the biggest problems of us all.. *haai. one of my mdrama entries na nmn..*
so thank you very much for just reading. and thanks a lot more for commenting.
i know there's not so much in it and i think i'd be able to get an award for a NONSENSE post. i promise to feel better before composing the next one..
shortest entrie buh? siyeeet. world record ito!
Thursday, November 16, 2006
nung nkaraan na gumagawa aco ng entrie dito was last sundei pa. *lanya. biglang nag-page cannot be displayed ang screen at nung nirefresh co ay nwla na xa ng tuluyan.* tsk tsk. sayang ang efort mgtyp. tapos na ung cuento co tungkol sa soundskool nun e.haaai..nwei, im tryin to sort out my thoughts *wla acong mgwang matino lately. lhat putol putol.* and i rememberd ung driver khapon nung ppasok aco ng skul.
i paid P20 pgsakai co plang. *wit matching faura-lang-po-yan-estujante effect* then i receivd my change - P12.50. as iskolar ng bayan *na sawa na sa pang-aapi, nax* inulet co ung estujante-lang-po-ung-bente efect. haha. d yta efectiv. piso lng binalik saken.
i dunnoe y.
la nmn xang pinapasakai.
d nmn xa knakausap ng mga candie vendors.
d xa ngbbsa ng jaryo. la ring mlakas na rajo at trafic nun..
so i think he did it on purpose. mlaki mnsan hnanakit co sa mga gnyang typ ng driver. ssabhin nla nalulugi cla sa mga students na d nmn nla cgurado kung pmapasok at mga senior na P5 lng ang inaabot. *haha.un ang wlang excuse.* and so binubuhos nila ung inis naun sa mga students na d nlng umaangal pg bnbigyan nila ng maling change. come to think of it, kung ung mga students nmn keia ang mgdecyd na gumanti sa drivers na ganun by not paying fare, ang mga inosenteng driver ang mgssufer. wawa nmn taiong lhat.
wla pa nmn acong lam na ibang option pgpasok.
..mxadong mgastos ang taxi/pedicab.
..hagard kung lalakarin co.
..wlang mghahatid saken nang libre arao arao.
..d aco mrunong mgbyk.haha.
revenge isn't alweis the answer.
let's all learn how to respect one another. panget tgnan pg ung mga wlang kamuang muang na tao ang mgging victim ng ating baluktot na actions and manners. hello?ngeexist pa po ang golden rule. *haha. words of wisdom ng isang batang malapit nang ma-inlove.*
EPALS:
-amahal ng closeup na xmas pack. gusto co pa nmn ng cd.
-ngpunta kme sa divi pero isang pirasong bag lng nabili co.la nang mgandang pants nd shoes na nagkalat this yr. ewan co buh..
-mxado acong naaadik sa milk at cream o.darn.bka tumaba aco ng tuluyan.
-mdali na mlowbat ang telepono co. *ehem* dad,gusto co nrn ng bagong fone sa xmas.hehe.*
-dco na ndagdagan colection co ng stars nung summer.sigh..
-dco na bbaguhin itong tmplate co.mhirap a.hehe.
that's all folks.pleeease.mgcoment nmn ung mga ngbbasa. MRAMING MRAMING SALAMAT..
Friday, November 10, 2006
FURST: ladies. do trust your man. they won't do anything stupid if they're really and truly-madly-deeply in love wit you.MALAS NIO LANG KUNG HINDE and the excuses he's been making are WAAAAAYY too O-B-V-I-O-U-S.
example wud b this guy i knoe who's courting a gurl before. the gurl asked if he got a friendster account, he replyd no and told her he's not using it anymore. later on,the guy stopped courting her and they became friends, the guy finally invited the gurl sa knyang account and guess what she saw - a testimonial from her gurlfriend wyl the guy was still courting the gurl.
haha for the two ladies na linoloko ng guy na un. tsk tsk..learn your ways my boy. you'll never find two wonderful ladies who'll care for you the way these two do.
SECOND: insecure people won't get awei wit their deeds.
I'M LUGHIN OUT LOUD- AT YOU. checkin out my profyl won't help you at all. better question him for your DESPERATELY NEEDED answers. lam mo buh na he's complainin to me bout you..and your attitude.y don't you check your OWN PROFYL furst before checkin on myn? and although i shud be enraged, im having fun writing these things you knoe. d aco naiinis and nahihiya lyk what i'm feelin before kce i'm not guilty of anythin. F.Y.I: i'm not diggin him. he's the one assuring my presence. haha, conceited? no.i think you just need to LOOK AFTER and BABYSIT your man 24/7.
THIRD: guys, do gurls a favor y lovin them - WHOLLY.
you're the main reason y gurls are becoming insecure these deis. haha. manisi daw buh? we gurls knoe guys are young and you all need to hav fun. so are we. and it's not fair f you're the only ones enjoyin lyf by playin us. parents (espexali mothers, ugh..) wud usually say WALA NANG MATINONG LALAKI SA MUNDO and i think it's up to you guys to prove them wrong. that you are all worth lovin and carin for. because if not, i do wish this patriarchal world would turn the other wei around. wher gurls wud be the one trickin on guys and you're the ones who'll get all very emotional and hurt.
FOURTH: love is really a blind thingy.
y? because i'm writin these for one reason - the privilege of being happy in a relationship despyt seeing only the good, or only the bad attitudes of each other. it's about acceptin one's character and letting them grow wit you into a beter person.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
nung isang araw.november 2 2006.
all souls' dei.
these are the things that hapend from nov 1 til mga 50 hours ago.
it's a miracle how i don't hav any crazy and scary experiences as november starts. d aco in..so sad..(ngwek. hehe.) mrami pla acong experiences - puro crazy nga lng. haha. lol.
-buo na halos ang st therese
ngpunta kme at around 9 last nov1 and we offerd prayrs, flowers and candles kna lolo and uncle (dadie's syd) and anlaki ng improvement. mejo malinis na sa baba tpos mei pangalan na ung mismong vault. nung umakyat kme sa chapel (na mukang church sa laki), the staind glasses wer alredi placed sa windows. grabe ang efect. it changed the dull aura insyd and added lyt sa suroundings. naging mas maaliwalas althou maliit lng ung place na pngmmisahan and not the whole chapel pa. either wei, it's stil worth hearin mass there. kung d lang xa depository, bka dun na co mgpkasal (which is still far from now..)
-alam na ni dyadya.
november 1 ktxt co xa, nutlugan co pa nga e. pasnxa, antok na tlga aco. dna co nkpagpaalam na mtutulog na.churi churi. pinilit nya co at nsabi co sknya. dont wori gurl, im takin gud care of my hart. i juz dunno how long he'd be around at nttkot aco na bka pg tumagal xa, he'l caught me off guard and i'd fol..haii. it won't hapen soon keia mei tym pa cong wg mgpadala sa emoxon as early as now. i'd bettr start dreamin gud things no? d tulad nung knuwento co seio na dream co nung isang araw sa bus. hehe.
-ktxt co c mystery guy.
haha. no coment. pg ngcuento aco dito, almost everybodie wud react. lalo na xa pg nbasa nia to. hopefuli dxa ngbbasa ng blog co. unbelievable lang that he's doing that to me. bsta. it's stil a mystery why he's doin those things - of ol the gurls nmn na pde niang bolahin dbuh? thinkin d rin yta serioso sa bbae un..bka mhalata na. shh. gelai. nu buh yan. tma na.. pero bago aco mg-open ng isa ang topic, eto clue. malapit lapit na ang code name co sknya - HERSHEY. haha. kaht aco natatawa. must..stop..laughin..(pfff..)
-bagong role.
d nlng xa isang kababata at dco narn xa suitor. napromote xa sa pggng bessy co. haha. xa ang guy version ni laih. And im holding his words - sna dw magwork khit ung pgging mg bestfriend nlng namen. ngwek. i knoe nsa tao pren yan. ttreat nia nga aco sa 15 e. sakto, that's a wdnsdei nd i have no class the next dei. (kung mppush thru ang aking aprovd sked sa crs -cross fingered gelai) i just wish pyagan pren aco umalis althou mei gimik na co sa soundzkul sa 11. hehe. O dkeia bka mgbulacan nlng kme ni bessy sa 18 (assuming wla pang mga prof na papasok nun.) hehe. gimikera ang lola mo..pero hapi aco kce la na kmi kylngang mging hassle nd i cud hav a frend - wit benefits. haha. bad..
- yael-ERS
yang c yuzon na yan, tgnan mo gngwa nia sa mga adicted na sknya. lhat halos ng membrs ng yg nila high na high sknya. anlufet ng mga tao. lhat ng gig, tv guestings, award nominatns, voting sa radio stations, mall shows, kabisado at perfect atendance. kumpleto sa pagppa autograf, pcture na rmmbrance, and other stuf na too many to mention. as early as 12 years old to as old as working, to as far as cebu..spongecola can be considerd as one of the popular bands in the country, and one of the hottest vocalist too. haha. but seriously, it's a wei to meet nu people, share comon interests and being able to be yourself witout the worry of being lafd at or misunderstood..sniff. vina and i belong. nax. (go, ngsend ulet aco ng pix seio. sna nbuksan mo na..)
-mhirap mgpagupet ng buhok.
sabi nla a month or a week bgo makita ang kgandahan ng buhok aftr haircut. DARN. anong ggwin co sa mga bad hair deis hbang inaantai ang one week or one month..?i shudnt hav had my hair shortened. (haha. prang pwdeng mgpagupet tpos hhaba no?)
"sabihin mo sakin kung ayaw mong marinig ang tinig, ang tinig. sabihin mo sakin kung ayaw mong marinig." - join da club
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
kwalan ng mgawa sa buhai.eto ngaion ang epekto..
that's my brother jr, who just turned 12 last october 30 and my lil sister rio, 7.
by the wei, that's me nung dco pa pinagupet hair co. *sniff*
