Sunday, July 31, 2005
sniff,,kung alam co lng sna e d...part ic bingo..*iniba co n nmn ung name..i saw diz bingo comerxal e..alala co lng xa..* kbbata co xa before pa.. ngkataon lumipat kme ng place..juz a block awei from our old hauz..so we could accompany our lola who just started livin alone that tym..kakalipat lng namen so m merely adjustin to the place..surroundings..malaio na kina Capito..and malaio naren kei bingo..*hla..dco ma-fil..para lang acong ngppatawa..ung name kce e!* bsta..so we went on wit our lives..forgetting the frndship we had wen we wer stil young..pro ngkikita nmn kme plage..eye contact..mnsan pa ngkakabungguan..pro the talks wer all gone na..then nung furst yr aco i had thiz frnd named maya..naging cloze me..tpos ung frend ni bingo na si joey..naging crush ni maya..as months passed na parati acong nakiki-sit in sa store nila..lagi co nang nkikita c bingo..*ntatawa tlga aco..* smyl nman..ung clozenes namen developd from juz simple hi's to a thing na nakakapagpa..*ching* ng mata wenevr i see him..*mei spark..?tma buh ung term?* pro i was the only one filing that wei..lalo na nung bnalita saken ni maya na ung cuzin pla nia nd c bingo..*dratz..sum gurls hav ol tha luck!* stil maya nd i shared a lot in comon..alweiz wantin to go outsyd for atenxon..*pampam po aco dati* to the point wer we gave them caps..*duda acong cnusuot nia..* tpos one nyt..ngpunta aco sa store nina maya..althou mai periodical test the following dei..i stil took for granted the tym being na wla ang parents co to hang outsyd..*bad buh??* til tumambai na rin c bingo dun..maya nd i wer havin problems wit joey nd bingo..nd they dunnot hav ny cluez bout it!grr..pro nung teary eyed na kme..hla..dun cla dumating nd askd wut's bin hapenin..hirap..ung tipong dco lam f i hav the ryt to tel him how much thiz *spark* mins to me..nd how much i value sum1 "TAKEN" lyk him..maya managed to tel him so..nd he explaind evrythin to me..*up to now, i stil dunno wut his xplanations were* nd told me to dry my eyes na..haaii..lufet..pro aios lng..at least i felt a lot better kce those words wer directly from him..i then insisted maya to talk to joey..pra mgkaaios na cla..nd headed bak home kce it'z already ten in the evnin..that very same nyt..i decided i'd stop my illusion of lettin myself sink deeply into him..*eto lng mga bgai sa icp co dat tym..kce pnapagalitan na co wen my mum aryvd.."angelina, bakt nsa lbas ca pa gabi na..?!ng aral ca na buh test mo bukas?!..baket nmamaga mata mo?!* i startd to avoid goin out whenevr he's around nd as he walk pass me..but stil the pain pinches me hard evrytym i ignor him..then maya's cuzin went to their place..nd that bingo nd her r fuzzin things out..*gud for them she came bak..i thought..at least they'l be able to work things out suner or later*weeks after that..i learnd that maya iz goin bak to her place..that i wud hav a hard tym seeing her agen..my dear friend wud stei wit her lola nd that she'l be sad bcoz she'l not only be livn me but also joey..i heard that after nia kausapn c joey,she learned that he too was filing the same wei towards her..*aww..* "buti ca pa" i silently murmurd after she packed up her last of her things..she huggd me for a wyl nd told me these.."mei oo nga pla..wla na c bingo at c 'insan..cguro kung dca lng bntai sarado ng daddy mo, niligawan ca na dw nia..kausapn mo na..kwawa nmn!hnahanap ca nren kce nun e.."the hurt came bac,.but thiz tym it's difrent..mas masakit..*sniff,,kung alam co lng sna e d..*but you knoe wut??dco xa knausap..
ge. FLEW on
7/31/2005 02:16:00 PM
ME
NAME: mae angeline robles gagarin.
BIRTHDAY: march.22.1988.
WHERE TO FIND HER: malate.manila.
me-ann.mei.gelai.ge.angelina.
blue extremes 05.concordia college.
ba development studies.up manila.
EMAIL AT: lefthandah@yahoo.com
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