Wednesday, August 17, 2005
"i love you"the girl said as she watched him leave. now that he's already gone, she might not be able to feel that way again. he's been a major part of her life. she doesn't even realize he's already parting away from her. as time passed by, before all of these things could ever happen, all she could ever mean to him slowly subsides. she wasn't the one in his heart anymore. she started to become a boulder on his shoulder which he needed to take off in order to be free. and as for her, she kept wondering what triggered him to be that way. she wanted so much to bring back his feelings though she knew she can't.
the words came directly from him."you cannot do anything anymore. you just have to let me go.."it hit her heart – bulls eye. at that moment she knew that she has to move on - alone. what would she say, of course? tears kept running down her cheeks from her swelling eyes. she just wished she can share another moment in his arms again. and although she embraced him tightly for the last time, he refused to hold her back and tried to turn away from her. he refused to hurt her that way but he knew very much, it was the kindest thing for him to do. he bent his head down, trying to hide his tears but it dropped upon her soft arms around him. she could only murmur those silent words - three words which was supposedly shared by two - now meant nothing but a hurting statement of a girl left by the guy she truly loved. she realized all she ever dreamt of was merely a bare shadow starting to pass her by. her worst nightmare had already came true, during her most unexpected time. he didn't even dared to take another glance. another turn on who he had left behind - the girl whom he once shared his life with and whose fate would now be completely separated from his. a silent whisper is all she can say - but now, expects nothing in return unlike all the other times before where she had passionately shared with him. dark are her days and darker for the coming nights.
although she think she's already free, her heart is still bound to the only guy who made her feel and fell this way..rrr"paano mo pa ipaglalaban ang taong matagal ca na palang isinuko't iniwan?"-lefthandah's orig
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8/17/2005 08:29:00 AM
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NAME: mae angeline robles gagarin.
BIRTHDAY: march.22.1988.
WHERE TO FIND HER: malate.manila.
me-ann.mei.gelai.ge.angelina.
blue extremes 05.concordia college.
ba development studies.up manila.
EMAIL AT: lefthandah@yahoo.com
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