Sunday, January 14, 2007
it's been a *short* while since i had my last entrie..i kinda miss putting things here..trying to sound mature enough with all of life's struggles,all of the emotions an average me could feel at the moment,saying almost anything that i find particularly interesting..well, stuff like that.i've been busy with my head for more than a week.i'm preoccupied with a couple of things i need to straighten up.all because it really is new year *haha.aftermath?*and it's a time to change things i can,finish uncompleted life missions *sounds like i'm gonna die eh?*and adding a little more lingering hope on things i'd like to accomplish given this..uhh..prolonged chance.heck yeah.i have to put my heart and soul into it this time.*vreyk it down!*
okay so much for that long introduction.the main reason why i'm updating my blog is due to consistent demand *ehem ehem*and because i'm glad that it didn't took a long time in order for my christmas wishes to come true.perhaps all i need to do is actually believe that it would happenand trust me,it does. *wenk*
..my sister's back home.
she cooks, she washes, she cleans the house..
we even seem to have a new yaya around! *haha.*
kiddin aside, she truly is back with us and her presence is felt almost everyday.
*actually, it's me who's often not around this time.*
..our barkada postponed the reunion last december 29
but hey, the impromptu one pushed thru last january 6.
although dianne and laura wasn't there,
we're all glad we had spent that much time wit each other again
after barely a year and half.
along with this, my best friend and i are already okei.
we're trying to revive what was lost and fill her admitted shortcomings.
..and mine as well.
we watched griffin and phoenix last mondei
and it's a good thing both of us are Globe now.
she asks if i'm okay every now and then..
it's a great way in order to renew our lukewarm condition before last year ended.
..hershey's back.
hell, i have no idea where i got the feeling he's lost anyway! *haha.patawa aku!*
i'm still trying to find a way to figure out why i'm having a difficulty getting him off my head..
should i tell you guys more about him?
nah.
i'd keep it to myself for now..
so why am i sharing all these juicy good stuff now?
..because i don't want all these to end
..because i don't want to go back to my drama mode
..because i don't think i could bear the pain if i lost anything
i had long dreamt of having againfor a while
..because it would be such an unhappy ending if i would let any of these,
and other things i already have,
to disappear
..and because i'm afraid that if they would
i may never have the chance to get them back.
oh well, this is the thrill of existing anway.
what's the lesson of this entry?
that humans cannot do anything against fate.
all they have to do is savor every moment with life's joys
..and accept losing it someday.
ge. FLEW on
1/14/2007 08:20:00 PM
ME
NAME: mae angeline robles gagarin.
BIRTHDAY: march.22.1988.
WHERE TO FIND HER: malate.manila.
me-ann.mei.gelai.ge.angelina.
blue extremes 05.concordia college.
ba development studies.up manila.
EMAIL AT: lefthandah@yahoo.com
''Close the door. write with no one looking over your shoulder. don't try to figure out what other people want to hear from you...figure out what you have to say. it's the one and only thing you have to offer.''
---Barbara Kingsolver
