Thursday, February 15, 2007
Yesterday, I wasn't that bothered by the PS14 exam pero ngayon, mukhang nagdududa na rin ako kung exam yung pinagdaanan ko sa sobrang..uhm..ano ba magandang terms..ah, alam ko na - shocking and unexpected. LOL.Anyway, belated happy valentines day to everyone. It felt like Christmas Eve last thirteenth due to the gift shopping rush in almost every mall and every flower shop. And the other days before it makes me wonder if people are just madly in love this year, or it's just me who's paying attention to what they're doing. Reminisce mode: last year February 14 was just an average day. I had my Greenwich group date with my tropa. The lights were covered with cellophane in order to make it look red and a little cozy, with matching live acoustic band on one corner, plus our little exchange gift during Anthro class and rose-giving raket after mag-RTR, completed my valentine's day. This year, it was different, in one way or another. I still shared my lunch with my tropa, we still ate at together (although there were no more romantic stuff like last year), and I went home, bitbit yung heart-shaped balloon na nakalagay sa kinainan naming table sa Greenwich. But this time, compared to last year, valentine's day made me realize that..that..sigh..I can't find the words to say it..Okay, so aside from the fact that I am stuttering and looking for terms to describe my valentine's day which is a great difference from the other years, I am having this sincerely stupid problem (hindi ko rin alam kung tamang pagsamahin yung dalawang adjective na ginamit ko) I don't know how to explain..I have thought of what you're thinking - this isn't love or something (defensive mode)..Hershey update:Nothing much..Haha!LOL. (tama bang mambitin?!)Have to clear my mind for now. There's still my Ethnobotany report tomorrow, plus SocSci2 final exam is just two weeks away, and we haven't thought of anything yet for the upcoming ACLE and final paper for my favorite subject PS14..
So here I am, trying to run away from my problems..again. It would come haunting me, I know.Na-imagine ko na rin na may mga goons in black na humahabol sakin at may suot na name tag kung saan nakasulat yung mga problema ko..I'd shout for help..and no one would hear me cry..It's a matter of just prolonging the 'FANTASY' I'm living in right now. It feels good to enjoy things I am not sure of staying..When reality strikes in the end, maaabutan din nila ako, at mamamatay din ako sa mga kamay ng goons na pilit kong tinatakasan..
Forgive me guys, my next entry would not be as nonsense as this one..
ge. FLEW on
2/15/2007 07:47:00 PM
ME
NAME: mae angeline robles gagarin.
BIRTHDAY: march.22.1988.
WHERE TO FIND HER: malate.manila.
me-ann.mei.gelai.ge.angelina.
blue extremes 05.concordia college.
ba development studies.up manila.
EMAIL AT: lefthandah@yahoo.com
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