Sunday, March 04, 2007
It really was a busy two-week school stuff for me. Alam ko medyo nagpapalusot lang ako kasi wala rin ako maisip ilagay sa blog ko dahil wala rin namang bago.. *Wooshoo. Wala daw o..haha.. At kailangan talaga may mga side comments like this?* Lately, may mga taong nagpaparamdam ng presence nila..Hindi ko hiniling yun. Parang mas maayos pa nga kung hindi nalang sila talga magparamdam e.. It really is complicated. Hindi na yata ako maalis sa ganitong status. Ayan. Intriguing na naman ang buhay ko. Andami na namang tauhan. Parang LOTR ang dating. *Wish ko lang kasing charming ni Orlando Bloom ung mga un di ba? Haha.* Oh well, it had already happened. All I have to do now is thank these two people for staying and convince another person, to just go away. LOL. *Hindi nga, seryoso ako.*Si Daryl: for the first time in..uhmm..humigit kumulang three years, he decided to send a smiley through IM nung nagkasabay kami online. Ang friendly nga ng approach niya e. I did not expected him to be that nice to me.. *me - na kusang lumayo one day dahil sa reason na hindi ko man lang sinabi sa kanya.* Kumustahan for a while.. and then I said I'm sorry. *Damn. Sorry still seems to be the hardest word.* Ginawa ko pang reason yung ngayon lang niya pagpaparamdam kaya ngayon lang din ako nakahingi ng tawad. I won't blame him kung magagalit siya sa akin right then and there.. I just don't want him tohold it against me someday kahit 'parang' masyado nang late yung sorry ko.''Ano? Sa tagal na yun ngayon ka lang magso-sorry? Ang kapal ng mukha mo! @$%&*! Alam mo ba kung anong ginawa mo sa akin? Isa kang @$%&*! Npaka - @$%&*! mo!''Buti at hindi naman ganun yung mga sumunod na nangyari.
*Sorry to disappoint excited human beings..*
Okay lang.
Yan lang ang reaction niya. No explanations needed. *No batteries included..haha.* With matching kiss na smiley pa yan..And I'm thankful dahil hindi na siya galit and all. Alam ko may mark na akong naiwan sa kanya, at never na maaalis yun - being the gurl who left him out of nowhere. Sa pagsasabi bandang huli ng 'keep in touch', I learned my lesson already. Hindi na mauulit itong ganitong scenario: boy meets gurl, gurl leaves boy for another, boy becomes sad..gurl goes back, boy says he's already okay..Ngayon ko lang naalala na masakit ang maiwan. *I know, based on experience..wenk.*
Hindi sa gusto kong bumalik yung dati. Pareho na kaming may kanya-kanyang buhay ngayon. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng chance na makipag-ayos. Tama na yun.
Si Hershey: may mga times ngayon na nagkakausap kami. Busy siya, busy rin ako..pero hindi niya ako kinakalimutan. Marami siyang iniintindi pero hope still remains that someday, he'll realize that he always have me.. I never went away. Wala rin naman akong pupuntahan e.. Di lang siguro halata. *Then he'll also realize siya yung tinutukoy ko dito! Bwahaha!*
Hindi ko nga lang maiwasan na isipin minsan kung kaya ko pa itong sabihin sa kanya. Siguro maiiwan nalang sa blog ko itong mga ito.. I'll never confront him and say these things. Mangyayari man yun, masyado pang matagal para matukoy ko kung kelan, or sa panaginip nalang yun magkakatotoo. Yes, my Christmas wish came true..but I'm already contented this way. I don't want to wish so hard..So hard that it would only leave broken pieces of me in the end..
Curious ka kung sino ino yung gusto ko nalang mawala?
Si Bingo.
Oo. Siya na naman. Siya ulet. Pilit siyang nakikipag-ayos sa akin ngayon. May pinatamaan daw ako sa blog ko, siya daw yun, di man lang ako nagsabi sa kanya before posting my entry..all that bullshit. It's he's fault tinamaan siya. Besides, blog ko ito. I could tell whatever sentiments, opinions, and points of view I have. He's got his own. Gayahin niya ako kung naiinggit siya. And I'm not just citing fictional events that time. Reality yun..pure reality. Kaya hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung ano ang gusto niyang i-consult ko sa kanya before writing. My thoughts? Arggh. Hindi ko na alam sasabihin ko sa inis ko sa kanya. I did erased him from my friendster list..and my phone contacts. Sana I could erase him from this world too.. *Oops! Better not say anything besides these nalang. He's not worth it.*
March na pala. There are still so many things to do, good thing my SocSci2 finals was over. *We all waited for our professor from 1pm til 230. She'll be late daw kasi..Tapos pagdating niya sandali lang daw, ipapa-photox niya yung questions..Asows.Whatta test! Buti nalang okay lang yung exam. I hope okay lang din yung results.*
50-50 lang ang saya ko as days hurried down to the twenty-second..
Uhm, siguro 60-40..Dahil sa presence mo.
ge. FLEW on
3/04/2007 05:40:00 PM
ME
NAME: mae angeline robles gagarin.
BIRTHDAY: march.22.1988.
WHERE TO FIND HER: malate.manila.
me-ann.mei.gelai.ge.angelina.
blue extremes 05.concordia college.
ba development studies.up manila.
EMAIL AT: lefthandah@yahoo.com
''Close the door. write with no one looking over your shoulder. don't try to figure out what other people want to hear from you...figure out what you have to say. it's the one and only thing you have to offer.''
---Barbara Kingsolver
