Fly away with me..

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Pretend that you're in a room full of friends..
Full of familiar faces.

Then this guy would come
A figure who once was a special part of you.
But now
He's just a stranger walking across the room.
You want to let him know how much you like to be forever by his side
To make him feel how much you love him with all your heart.

But then you also recall the times that when you need him
He wasn't there.
The times that when you call on him,
He just don't care.

You also remembered those words,
Those messages
Those warm embraces
Those moments which made you feel the happiest girl in the world
Especially when he calls youNot by name
But by gestures of love
Only he can ever do.

Then this guy returns to just passing in front of you.
The ache still cries from within.
The day he told you
He realized he doesn't really feel that way.
That everything was just a big mistake.
He was impulsive and he was confused
All the while.
No matter how much you tried to understand
You can't.
You just can't.
It took him a few days to realize he never loved you
Despite that kind of treatment
Despite the actions he had shown
Despite the truth that you had fallen for him along the way.

And as this guy glances at your direction from across the room
You just want him gone
Vanished into thin air.
You want him out of your sight
Completely out of your life
You want him to feel
The kind of pain
You have been feeling for the last couple of months now.

That way you wonder,
You might be able to learn to forget him
You might be able to forget the feeling of being 'niloko'
'Pinaniwala'
'Pinaasa'.
That way,
Things may have been easier
That way,
You might have been happier.

You might.
But no.
You can't.
Sadly
No matter how hard you pray at night
He'd still be there.
No matter how you slowly open your eyes in the morning
Hoping everything's alright,
He'd still be there.
And no matter how much you hate loving him
He'd still be there.

And as the room was filled with people you want to be there
It all seems like there's only two of you inside
With you longing to run away,
Yet you can't do anything.
You just stop and stare
Asking yourself when and where did things go wrong
Who's to blame
How to avoid the heartaches.

And as you constantly search for answers,
You stopped pretending to be me.

Bitter and desperate as it may sound,
I want to be like you even for just a little while.
For you can stop.
I can't.
This is my reality.

Sa mga nag-aabang ng kadramahan ko,
Eto na siguro yung pinakamatindi.
Hardcore na ito.
Totohanan.
Walang gaguhan.

Magcomment na yung mga gustong mag-comment.
Baka burahin ko rin itong entry ko sometime soon.

ge. FLEW on 7/12/2007 02:20:00 PM