Fly away with me..

Sunday, June 08, 2008

It was exhausting to feel what the farmers feel (although they are no longer farmers today) and even more exhausting to listen to their cries for help. The most exhausting part however is to drain ourselves out, day in and day out, trying to figure out ways to lighten their burden and help resolve their conditions but in the end accepting that we can't do anything about it. Whew. That was one tough month I can't believe organizers are always going through. (Saludo po ako sa inyong determinasyon at katatagan ng loob!)

Before going home from my Batangas immersion last May 15, I told myself I would not do another blog entry until inspiration - or depression - strikes me. Don't get me wrong, I do have an inspiration and I'm always happy. My boyfriend never run out of reasons to cheer me up, take care of me and make sure that I feel loved each and every single day. Maybe that's the reason why I never created any entries yet. He told me I need to update my blog but I was so darn happy that I cannot put into words what I feel. Toinks. Lame excuse. Pero di nga. Lovestruck na kung lovestruck. :x

I wasn't able to follow this because of some other reason. After I went home from Bats, my lethargic self sets in and at night, the 'bukas na lang' attitude always prevail. Each day served as opportunity to make sure I wouldn't do the things I already did last month. I made sure every moment serve as my reward for all the things I've been through. As if I did that much enough to be excused from everyday errands no? But yes, I was a bum pagkatapak na pagkatapak palang sa bahay. Hehe.

And so the days went on, then another, and another, until I realized one whole month passed nang wala akong ginagawa but breath, watch TV, eat, go out, and show off my indolence at home. Total brat kungbaga. Considering we have our maid, I am satisfied with the way our life would go.

Isang buntong hininga... Finally, my yaya days are over.

Wala pang isang linggo matapos ang first month celebration ko na ito, ate Malou and my mum quarelled. The following morning, my parents told us our maid would be leaving at the end of the month. Therefore, we'd all be working our ass off again starting June. Nice timing huh. Sinabayan pa niya ang Academic Year... Tsk.

So much for my 'panganay-sibling' break. Maybe I don't even deserve one because of my laziness since mid-May. I'd be cooking meals, washing dishes, fetching water, washing clothes, and take care of not only the house but my siblings as well. Not to mention I have to run a loooooooooot of errands. Perhaps this is my REAL reward. In line with this, my parents decided to memorize my classes this semester. Sakto daw yung sked ko for all the household chores while everyone else is in school or at work.

I didn't even feel April and May 2008. Huhu... I doubt if I'm ready for the real bitter world yet again. Sigh. Anything else to give my AY a great start?
Darn it.

ge. FLEW on 6/08/2008 03:35:00 PM