Tuesday, September 30, 2008
I can't blog lately. It's either I'm so tired from doing all the necessary school stuff, or I'm so tired and I don't find blogging a form of break from all the paper work. Wahaha! Toxic 'no? Well, it's a matter of finishing them all before I find time creating a new entry. Sa kaso ngayong gabi, tama na ang papalit-palit ng MS Word ng 126 report, thesis proposal, and Econ 115 report on foreign policy and international trade.Ayoko man sisihin ang acads, napatunayan kong ito ay isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit ako nagkakaroon ng attitude problem. SYMPTOMS: pagiging mainitin ang ulo, pagiging matampuhin, pagiging iyakin, tapos in the end, pag nakikitang wala nang patutunguhan yung ginagawa ko, I'd apologize and soon act like nothing happened.Weird 'no? Para akong meron..merong sakit sa utak. Hahaha!I just realize, yung pagkikimkim ko ng petty misunderstandings at mabababaw na tampo, yun yung nag-aacumulate para maging ganito yung pakikisama ko sa ibang tao. Maybe other people won't notice, yung mood swings ko, madalas sa dulong part ng araw. Kung mamalasin, hanggang kinabukasan pa. And oh, maganda man o pangit yung takbo ng araw, nakadepende pa rin yung pangkalahatang kagandahan at kapangitan sa dami ng taong napasaya ko o napalungkot ko pag naghiwalay na kami at the end of the day. So my day's screwed if I made my loved ones hate me before we part ways, and my day's complete if I made them happy before we all go home.Another thing, my favorite line since I dunno when: HINDI NA.As in hindi na mauulit, I think I used the term excessively this time. Kakasabi ko ng ''hindi na,'' hindi na rin naniniwala sa akin yung sinasabihan ko. I wish I could earn his trust back. Magsasabi man ako ng OPO, ganun din ang ending. I don't want to be labelled as p-a-s-a-w-a-y. I don't want to make promises either. I do hope I could stop blaming myself... Okay last na 'to:It's my fault. I'm very sorry.TREATMENT: Roll all these things into one big heavy load..and then drop it somewhere for someone else to pick it up. Teehee.
ge. FLEW on
9/30/2008 11:34:00 PM
ME
NAME: mae angeline robles gagarin.
BIRTHDAY: march.22.1988.
WHERE TO FIND HER: malate.manila.
me-ann.mei.gelai.ge.angelina.
blue extremes 05.concordia college.
ba development studies.up manila.
EMAIL AT: lefthandah@yahoo.com
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---Barbara Kingsolver
